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"Hold my breath as I pray for death...Oh, please God, help me!"

2 Corinthians 11:25-33

King James Version

25 Thrice was I beaten with rods, once was I stoned, thrice I suffered shipwreck, a night and a day I have been in the deep;

26 In journeyings often, in perils of waters, in perils of robbers, in perils by mine own countrymen, in perils by the heathen, in perils in the city, in perils in the wilderness, in perils in the sea, in perils among false brethren;

27 In weariness and painfulness, in watchings often, in hunger and thirst, in fastings often, in cold and nakedness.

28 Beside those things that are without, that which cometh upon me daily, the care of all the churches.

29 Who is weak, and I am not weak? who is offended, and I burn not?

30 If I must needs glory, I will glory of the things which concern mine infirmities.

31 The God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, which is blessed for evermore, knoweth that I lie not.

32 In Damascus the governor under Aretas the king kept the city of the damascenes with a garrison, desirous to apprehend me:

33 And through a window in a basket was I let down by the wall, and escaped his hands.

If you kill people or watch them die, you will see God and face judgement. And there will be no mercy.

Matthew 5:3–12

3Blessed are the poor in spirit,

    for theirs is the Kingdom of Heaven.

4Blessed are those who mourn,

    for they will be comforted.

5Blessed are the meek,

    for they will inherit the Earth.

6Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,

    for they will be satisfied.

7Blessed are the merciful,

    for they will be shown mercy.

8Blessed are the pure in heart,

    for they will see God.

9Blessed are the peacemakers,

    for they will be called the Sons of God.

10Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,

    for theirs is the Kingdom of Heaven.

11Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of Me.

12Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you...

“O Lord our Father, our young patriots, idols of our hearts, go forth to battle -- be Thou near them! With them -- in spirit -- we also go forth from the sweet peace of our beloved firesides to smite the foe. O Lord our God, help us to tear their soldiers to bloody shreds with our shells; help us to cover their smiling fields with the pale forms of their patriot dead; help us to drown the thunder of the guns with the shrieks of their wounded, writhing in pain; help us to lay waste their humble homes with a hurricane of fire; help us to wring the hearts of their unoffending widows with unavailing grief; help us to turn them out roofless with little children to wander unfriended the wastes of their desolated land in rags and hunger and thirst, sports of the sun flames of summer and the icy winds of winter, broken in spirit, worn with travail, imploring Thee for the refuge of the grave and denied it -- for our sakes who adore Thee, Lord, blast their hopes, blight their lives, protract their bitter pilgrimage, make heavy their steps, water their way with their tears, stain the white snow with the blood of their wounded feet! We ask it, in the spirit of love, of Him Who is the Source of Love, and Who is the ever-faithful refuge and friend of all that are sore beset and seek His aid with humble and contrite hearts. Amen.”

― Mark Twain